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China
October 3, 2007
yesterday was my birthday.i had thought that day would be very specail and unforgettable.so it was .but it is not the same as i hoped.the day before yesterday i broke up with my boyfriend who promised me to come see me and get-together with me .he broke his promise .long time before,i had the hope that i should give one chance to rescue my affection ,so i didn;t say break-up to him .because he was always good to me.i didn't want to hurt his feeling .i tried my best to rescue it but it turned out to be a great fault .i should not have given this chance to us ,as well as our affection .our love lacked in understanding and a lot of things .he almost told me that he loved me very deeply everyday ,but without any action.i hated this kind of guys.when he told me he would just have a three-day holiday and couldn't come to see me ,i felt very sad and had a feeling of being cheated.everything was just like a beautiful dream or a fairy tell that was broken at that moment.i could understood him totally,because he had to do what his boss in order to live .and i always understood him .but it seemed that he treated me as a fool who just was satisfied with some faulse stories.i didn't care whether he was handsome and wether he had a lot of possessions,what i really care is that he could undstand me like i understand him and he could be with me and could turn up whenever i need.from the early begaining to the end ,i had any sense of safe .i haven't seen him since we became lovers.every feeling i felt on him just came from my imaginary.who had net this kind of love which everything just depened on imaginary?i thought no one .so i choose to break up with him .although i was very sad ,i didn't want to continue this kind of sadness and stupid action .i wanted to be a strong-willed girl and went on pursue my dream .before i arrive my destination ,no one could atop my steps.i will never say give up ,never.
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