pure and red bean
China
October 3, 2007
yesterday was my birthday.i had thought that day would be very specail and unforgettable.so it was .but it is not the same as i hoped.the day before yesterday i broke up with my boyfriend who promised me to come see me and get-together with me .he broke his promise .long time before,i had the hope that i should give one chance to rescue my affection ,so i didn;t say break-up to him .because he was always good to me.i didn't want to hurt his feeling .i tried my best to rescue it but it turned out to be a great fault .i should not have given this chance to us ,as well as our affection .our love lacked in understanding and a lot of things .he almost told me that he loved me very deeply everyday ,but without any action.i hated this kind of guys.when he told me he would just have a three-day holiday and couldn't come to see me ,i felt very sad and had a feeling of being cheated.everything was just like a beautiful dream or a fairy tell that was broken at that moment.i could understood him totally,because he had to do what his boss in order to live .and i always understood him .but it seemed that he treated me as a fool who just was satisfied with some faulse stories.i didn't care whether he was handsome and wether he had a lot of possessions,what i really care is that he could undstand me like i understand him and he could be with me and could turn up whenever i need.from the early begaining to the end ,i had any sense of safe .i haven't seen him since we became lovers.every feeling i felt on him just came from my imaginary.who had net this kind of love which everything just depened on imaginary?i thought no one .so i choose to break up with him .although i was very sad ,i didn't want to continue this kind of sadness and stupid action .i wanted to be a strong-willed girl and went on pursue my dream .before i arrive my destination ,no one could atop my steps.i will never say give up ,never.
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